Overnight at work :/

Writing this on my iPad still at work cause my boss wants a 'night off' from the baby. Ducked out to the gym and am now settled for the night on the couch :) I think I just scraped in under 600 calories today and was under 600 yesterday ( forgot to put that as it was my challenge update yesterday). I so badly want to lose this next 2kg before I go away!!! My boss asked me today if I had lost weight :) I wish!!! I don't know why people ask that shouldn't it really be a statement? Like if you have to ask the question you obviously can't really tell they have lost anything. I'm on the second day of my couch to 5k app I'm so unfit it isn't even funny. I'm soooo excited about going home for the party wish I didn't have to come back!

79 calories in a lindt ball!!!

Alright so I just got home and looked up how many calories in a Lindt ball and fuck me! There are 79 calories! what a complete waste, what a stupid moment of weakness!
Was going quite good until that oh and the 2 random crackers I had cause I was so bloody starving.

Work went well, although I did no formal exercise today (was just soo tired didn't go to the gym) I did a lot of working with the baby I look after and a lot of crawling around.

Was going so well food wise until this afternoon when I was just so hungry and while at someone else's house preparing M's dinner I couldn't resist stealing two crackers out of their container. I wouldn't think it was more than 20 all up but still!

Breakfast: small apple= 47 calories

Lunch: Snack a Jacks= 108 calories

Dinner: small apple = 47 calories

Snacks: 2 x crackers = 20? calories

1x Lindt ball = 79 calories!!!

Rusks = 57 calories

Orange Juice = 40? calories

Total = 398 calories

Worried about Wednesday... first of all it's weigh in day and although my first week has gone alright it has been nowhere near perfect. Secondly it's my birthday and my flat mate is taking me out to dinner. just what I DON'T need! She didn't really like my attitude of I'm doing nothing, why bother.  I've also got sitting on my text a big care parcel from my mum eeeekkk it's for birthday/easter and I know it is going to contain sooo much food. Will open it on Wednesday and just have to be strong.

Going to Norway for work at the end of the week, not looking foward to it as they are big on family meals blah! Which means they actually notice what I eat.

Calories, calories, calories

I never used to count calories, infact never gave them a thought. Last time I was 'sick' I  ate what I wanted to, then I would just not eat for a few days, have a meal that I wanted to then not eat for a few days... calories didn't really matter to me. But today I spent a good 30 mins in the supermarket picking things up and putting them back cause they had wayyyy to many calories and  would feel bad and that I had failed if I ate them.

Did alright today, again not a perfect day but could have been worse.

Breakfast: small apple = 47 calories

Lunch: 1 can of sprite zero and Snack a Jacks = 109 calories

Dinner: Can of chicken soup = 139 calories

Snacks: 1 minty = 24 calories
chocolate saltanas = 162 calories

Total = 481

So sort of ruined it with the chocolate saltanas but on the plus side they are now all gone so won't be tempted anymore :) . 

Went for a nice long walk for an hour, maybe just over.

Bit worried about going back to work tomorrow after a nice long weekend but hopefully I will stay strong.